Identity Spectrum

I'm sorry I blinded you with such bright colors, I JUST LOVE THEM SO. The original uncolored meme was too dull for my tastes. XD

BUT ANYWAY, yeah...in case you haven't figured it out by now based on the polls, journals, and changes to my stamps, etc. I'm not really identifying myself as a female anymore. I mean, I've always been male in my mind, but just recently have I really embraced it. Even as a little "girl" I had male tendencies. Whenever we played "The Lion King" I would be Simba instead of Nala, or any other form of pretend would have me being the male role or a made up male role. While the other little girls were getting Barbies for Christmas, I was getting a Tonka truck. And at one point I cried, because I thought it was wrong. I even thought I was gay in first grade for playing as a boy. My mom quickly assured me I wasn't since I didn't actually have an attraction to girls, but it still didn't feel right. WELL, now it does. It feels very right. I feel like a boy, and I know inside this was how I was meant to be.

Now, don't go getting excited just yet. I don't intend to get surgery, and I'm still identifying as asexual with an attraction to men. Also, I can't come out totally openly yet, due to my loved but close-minded mother who would undoubtedly love me but not totally accept me. At least not for a while. Of course, whenever I get the courage to stand up to my mom, I will probably slowly start to transition in appearance. I already have a FtM binder from Underworks. I use it for cosplay at the moment, but now it might serve a better purpose.

From now on though, I prefer male pronouns. I understand it is probably uncomfortable since you all have been applying female pronouns all this time, but try to slowly get into saying male ones. XD I won't bite your face off if you don't but yeah...The only exception to this is on Facebook where I still have to pretend to be female or my mom will find out...and I'm not ready for that yet.

That being said, if you do know me IRL or on Facebook, try to refrain from bringing this post up publicly. Like I said, mom is on there ad I will deal with her on my own terms at my own pace.

Also, feel free to call me Johnny. C: It's not important though, I still like Corn and B. Roberts as well. XD Just saying, it's something I'd like to try out. I would have been Johnny IRL anyway if not for biological things.

Umf, TL;DR I'm on a road of self discovery and might need support. XD